DEATH BEFORE DISHONOR

sometimes i find myself in a position of walking away. i work very hard to stay but many times it is at a self sacrifice. i dont want to do that anymore. people come and go and gossip and frankly i do not care. i am here to build something greater than myself and that is going to happen but sometimes i have to deal with some business.

ive worked very hard to get where i am and i am currently on the first step of this staircase. i want to go somewhere else. not sure where yet but this road is nice. ive met many new connections and i am currently practicing new muslce movements. its just finding what works, repeating it, refining it, then build out from that foundation.

when you throw shit at a wall it tends to stink.

i think that people are not afraid of failure, they are afraid of either success, or admitting that what they were doing was wrong. so better to live in a habit that is comfortable than to experience growth and discomfort.

everything is happening that ive wanted to happen but i dont want it to happen right now.

sometimes it requres you to lock in halfway through the movement and let fate take the first step. instinct. intuition, god, whatever you want to call it, sometimes that first moment is not you, but you from some far future coming back to say hi, and that you got this. i dont know what i am talking about but i dont really think anybody does. we give meaning to things that are meaningless but isnt that the point.

if i dont know the answer, i will find it, and if i cant find it, i will find somebody who can, and i will go with them, but regardless i will find the answer. idk what the question is. whats 9 + 10? 21! you stoooopid.