End of Year Thoughts

Sometimes I find myself trying to make a lot out of a little or only making a little from a lot. regardless I am making something, and will continue to do so.

I found myself growing at a rate that made me uncomfortable. I don’t enjoy attention, but I appreciate recognition. there’s something weird that happens when you’re putting in the work. it feels like there’s not enough time in the day no matter how many hours I abuse.

there were many times where I found myself on the verge of quitting the brand. many stressed nights and frustrating conversations both inside and out of cardinal markings.

my mental health has been all over the place. my desperate need to feel has brought me to places I've never though attainable. high highs met be the lowest lows.

my frustration with the art scene has led me to want to mold it. I've always believed in the idea that if you don’t see something you like in the world go out and make it. get to work. I find myself surrounded by stagnate water that can easily be mistaken for an oasis. but is an oasis a home, or refuge. is it opportunity or is it just a safe space of being comfortable. I love being uncomfortable. comfort is the enemy of progress.

i’ve honed in on what I want to do with my life and I refuse to quit. something amazing happens when unrivaled motivation meets raw talent. all the sudden all the anxiety and doubts I've had about myself transform into some sort of mix between rage and passion. angry at the world and myself for not doing this sooner, but also passionate about forgiveness and being kind.

this website took a while to build, and if for some reason you see this blog, feel free to reach out. I think i’m going to make this a weekly part of my schedule. just a way to connect to the people im trying to support. I want privacy, I don’t want you to know who I am, I just want you to see what I do.

I love talking about mental health and things that make the world move no matter how big or small. I love the creative process, I love helping and being helped. I love ego, and being humble. I love making love. I enjoy smoking and going for a walk. I enjoy every walk of music. I hate fake people. I hate gossip and drama. I thoroughly enjoy any creative project that somebody wants to do so long as it’s done right.

it’s not a matter that I win, it’s that I win the right way.