2026 YEAR OF THE HORSE

just finished the website and all the promo for the first showcase of 2026. feeling tired. feeling like there are too many cooks in the kitchen. feeling like friends of friends are going to ask for favors and to skip the line. this can’t happen.

somebody dms me and I tell them to wait inline, same person dms the others and they say they can skip the line. too many cooks. everyone wants to say they contributed but not everyone can. I think that’s the most frustrating part and hardest pill to swallow. not everyone is good at operating or needs to be an operator. I will never expect a pianist to play the tuba. everyone has their role.

I find myself doing things my way is the most efficient. no bs. first showcase went off without a hitch, except for 2 children that decided to make a corner of a walkway their personal bathroom. but, everything else went perfect. I planned and executed everything and dealt with last minute switch ups. its just putting in the work. its easy. I've done it before and I will do it again.

the artist community and ego have been my biggest annoyance. my ego stems from the fact that I want to protect my mental health. I find those who surround themselves with the social scene love gossip, drama, and can’t seem to stay in their own business. this causes headaches. I don’t have time for headaches, well at least anymore than I already have to deal with.

I refrain from hanging around the art scene because I have work to do. I also don’t like drama.

I’ve done the work and made a strong reliable circle around me of those who see my work. the people who see my work are the ones who know how to get work done. the people who see results are consumers.

are you a consumer or are you a producer?

I intend to surround myself with only producers this year. people in places where things actually happen. im tired of herding cats. im tired of sitting in stagnate water with people who run in circles and call it progress. im tired of flash photographers and instagram models. im tired of cyber sigilism. im tired of pimple patches and distressed denim outfits. im tired of hard liquor and loud people. im tired of ai and fake creatives. im tired of performers who call themselves artists. im tired of a lot of things but I will rest when the job is done.

im excited for this year. I think a lot is coming for my future.i know a lot is coming for my future. im eager to make this happen.i just gotta do the work.

take care of the work, the work will take care of you.